There are fantasies which cannot exist, not easily exist. I am a
daydream believer. It can be a frustrating lifestyle. I don't know what
these tough parts are really for, but to be endured. I try to extract
the lesson and thus lessen the season in hell. Like, if I could only
find the moral of all of this, then I would be released.

Where are the miracles you speak of? They are already occurred? They've
lined up miraculous tracks for the loco motives?

Miraculous trackage? Miraculous track records? Miraculous track
recourse?

If I can simply lever open my mind for nexperiences! For new
experiences, next experiences, to return to a kind of spontaneous and
less hidebound...boy, I gave myself license to become conservative,
saying to myself -- Fuck it, I'm old enough now, I don't have to change
anymore, my habits are set, etc.

Limited domains, and space names

I can't lose faith in or track of. The new is still the thing, the next
thing unthought of, the key, not a representation of our common media
world but an elucidation of the private world of the individual.
Impressionistic writing, who ever heard of such a thing!

Jade vulva bomb

You don't open a book for a bunch of confusion.
One doesn't expect this from a book.
Neither would I necessarily love such a thing
But...I have yearned for something and I must create it in order to both
see it and to have created it.